You’re about to read Chapter 11. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Lesson 11 kicked my ass. I felt resistance to it immediately, and by the time I finished my homework, I understood exactly why. “Never underestimate the power of your agreements to influence your life.” The last sentence of Lesson […]
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Releasing Toxic Ties (Lesson 10)
You’re about to read Chapter 10. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Today was a long day and all I want to do is meditate and then sleep. So it’s a relief that I don’t have much to say about Lesson 10. [Editor’s Note: That last sentence proved to be highly […]
Letting Go of the Past (Lesson 9)
You’re about to read Chapter 9. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I definitely have a husband. We’re just not married yet. It’s possible we haven’t even met. But I promise you, our marriage is worth waiting for. Making way for the future “I have faith in the future I cannot […]
Allowing Loss (Lesson 8)
You’re about to read Chapter 8. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I hate it when my therapist makes me think. I shared with her today about my “had been” heartbreak, and she was not impressed. She pointed out that my narrative was unsubstantiated and also that my choice to reach […]
Making the Space for Love (Lesson 7)
You’re about to read Chapter 7. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I have never felt more on my own. But I also feel the peace I prayed for, and I am deeply grateful. I wasn’t sure I had space for Lesson 7 Lesson 7 is about making room. In theory, […]
The Nature of a Soul Connection (Lesson 6)
You’re about to read Chapter 6. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. It feels like Paul and I are over for real. On the plus side, Lesson 6 now holds more appeal. Last night, Lesson 6 made me cry Lesson 6 is all about releasing preconceived notions of how “The One” […]
A Vision of Love Fulfilled (Lesson 5)
You’re about to read Chapter 5. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. What do you want to do before you die? And do you secretly think an intimate partnership will get in the way? Those are the unspoken questions of Lesson 5, which is all about expanding our vision so we […]
Love for Love’s Sake (Lesson 4)
You’re about to read Chapter 4. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I have faith that my beloved will find me. It is safe for me to surrender to God’s will (aka love). I trust that all is well. Today I wrote down each of those phrases ten times apiece, and […]
Honoring Our Need for Others (Lesson 3)
You’re about to read Chapter 3. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Lesson 3 stung. I suppose I had a tough time with it because, although Lesson 3 was not new, it did not feel like review. It felt like reproach. Yes, I am needy. Yes, that is okay. Of course […]
Looking Through Laura’s Eyes (Lesson 2)
You’re about to read Chapter 2. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Laura had cancer. (Spoiler alert, sorry.) (Also, sorry for not saying “spoiler alert” BEFORE the spoiler.) And as Laura neared death, her vision for love expanded. She could see it everywhere. Love is everywhere In Lesson 2 of Calling In […]
Expanding Our Capacity to Love and Be Loved (Lesson 1)
You’re about to read Chapter 1. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. My shoulders hurt. Which is, I suppose, the logical outcome of 26 very slow arm stretches. “I open myself fully to give and receive love.” The practice for Lesson 1 is basically a form of yoga. That works well […]
Taking a Gamble (Lesson Zero)
To be honest, I am hoping you won’t see this. I am intending for this project to be semi-private, shared only with a small handful of women who might benefit from my musings. To that end, I was all set to purchase a new domain so that I could anonymously write blog posts for the […]
Add it to everything
I miss writing publicly for only myself. My last post was on New Year’s Eve, and I left it like that on purpose. I left myself some ambiguity, some wiggle room in case I didn’t continue with this website. It’s been two months since then and I miss it. I miss sharing my unsolicited insights […]
Gratitude galore
It’s New Years Eve and I don’t know what’s next. I do know: I am light, I am love, so are you, we are blessed. I just completed a second round of morning pages in order to fill up the remainder of a composition notebook because I want to start a fresh one tomorrow without […]
Be here. Practice everywhere.
It’s not always easy for me to slow down. In fact, it’s frequently hard. There are so many things I could/should/want to be doing at any given moment, and I find it challenging to choose stillness. But Cheri Huber helps. Several times a day, @cherihuber sends a tweet, which I receive as a text. Sometimes […]
Give thanks, get goodness
There’s a message board in the entryway to my apartment, and on it I’ve written a reminder that has really helped me stay present the last week or so. “Focus on what you want.” That means no regretting what didn’t happen or dwelling on what’s wrong. It means noticing my thoughts and dismissing what doesn’t serve […]
How can you help you help you?
I’ve learned that self-care is pretty much nonnegotiable if I want to be nonmiserable, but lately I’ve been scraping by with the bare minimum. So it was pretty cool when the latest Wholly Shift session resulted in a concrete list of tasks I can complete each morning and night in service of my well-being and continued […]
You don’t have to earn a thing.
Right now, already, you are everything. There is nothing you need. Sure, there is plenty to dream of and hope for and work toward, and thank goodness for that. Oh, goodness. Goodness is everywhere, and more is on the way. If you let it, goodness—love—will show you its secrets, carry you in its kindness, sweep […]
In case you didn’t already know
I like to feel good. Stress, typically, does not feel good. Sure, sometimes it’s exhilarating—the thrill of rushing toward a deadline, the zing of taking a risk. But I don’t need a lot to get my fill, and lately I’ve had too much. The other night I did yoga at home, and that helped, for […]
Love is greater than terror.
“Terrorists are jerks.” That’s the subject line of an email a very dear friend sent me last weekend. She went on to let me know that some terrorists had opened fire at a shopping mall in Nairobi, Kenya, and that a very dear friend of hers was there when the gunfire began and was currently […]