One down, forevermore to go!

I.   LOVE.   YOGA!

That sentiment should be beyond evident if you’ve ever read a word of my blog, but it’s never felt truer than tonight.

I taught a full (half) class! All by myself!

I’m actually glad I didn’t get through the whole thing–I knew I wouldn’t, such is the structure of tandem teaching–because now I still have that accomplishment to look forward to. I also get to look forward to improving my posture and my intonation at certain points. And I know there are a few things I missed in my dialogue, but there always will be and that’s what excites me: It seems impossible that I could ever tire of this, that I could ever run out of discoveries and improvements.

I honestly love almost everything about yoga, and it feels amazing to be so consistently enthusiastic, so earnestly eager to share my passion and knowledge.  I am still overwhelmed by all the variations and interpretations of yoga, all the sects and personalities that populate the field. But the heart of all of it is the same, just like we’re all the same at heart.

And so I am teaching what I know and learning all I can. And it feels GOOD.

I’ll never teach my first class again, and nothing will ever be the same. Each experience will be a new creation. I’ll never talk to that exact group of people  again, and our shared energy will never be entirely replicated.

In fact, I don’t think I could repeat myself if I tried–I confessed to the teacher who team-taught with me that I didn’t remember too much of what I’d said. He told me that either meant I’d been immersed in the present moment or that I was way too distracted with worrying–and he said he could tell I wasn’t worried.

Which, I wasn’t. I did my fair share of freaking out beforehand, but by the time I showed up at the studio I was ready to go, comfortable and almost surreally carefree. I wouldn’t go so far as to say confident, but, most definitely getting there. So! I succeeded as far as I’m concerned, and it’s no small relief that my instructor agreed. Yay for honest effort well rewarded, and more to come, no doubt!